Chapter 1 of the Stories..THIS IS MY OWN BOOK

halllllloooo again blog...wo0ow...

what a really long time no see u..

i also don't know why it can be happen..

may be when i want to start to talking with u, i feel really empty till now also feel like that..

what things that change after we really meet each others for a very long time.??

when i see you, nothing change that much blog..

so how do you feel bout me.?

am i change..??

how do you think..???

am jus the same me.

all things of my life has really change a lot since that nightmare..

when i lost all that precious one to me.

all change..

my life change also since that time..

is that change to be more better or worse..

i also don't know.

and the worst thing is i still don't found out my way

i still not recover yet..

 I REALLY LOST MY SELF

have no innovation and motivation for myself at all.

till now..

that's is also why I did not tell you what am fell..

i did not tell you what I've been seen..

am back to the truly my self i think

become more close.

heart close.

mind close..

all close..

only pretending.

enjoying days.??i don't think so.

all my truly smile, laugh, happiness, just a fake..

but one things that really is, i love to spend all my money to get all the stuff that i want.

i thing it's much more better to go that way..coz i can makes me happy with all that stuff.

even it's so expensive.

but makes me much more better..

much much more better..

why i can do that..?

coz nothing important anymore to me.?

nothing.

all lost..

all disappears.

ALL..

so i choose to walking all alone..

facing all the things by my self.

i supposed to be alone.

and i think i might be ready for it.

from now on, this is my book.

this is my story..

WE CAN'T PLAY OUR BROKEN STRINGS..

Glass Wine that broke into piece, will not be fix..

there're always have a scar..

but that scar will makes me stronger, and truly realize

it's kind of egoistic i think, but now that's me..

all just for my own..

HEART HURT

SOul disappears..

so what all that means.?

NOTHING MEANS..

TRAUMA

SADNESS

HURT

i'll try to say good bye to you all..

no more in my life..

i really hope so actually..that am not gonna feel it again anymore.

but i know, might be i would face it all again..

but when.?

let's see..

dear blog..

we might be not see again for a long long time..

hahaha.

so take care of urself buddyy..

buddha bless u..

ONLY ME

kheng