Memories Will Still Remain..

yo0o..blogg..
jus wanna share a photo that i love right now..
when see this pic, it's makes me feel happy with all the memories that i have had..
thank you for all the memories inside
whether it's sad or happy,

ALL THE MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS REMAIN 

all the stories..

all the memories..

maybe it's jus the past of our life.

but it will always remain

forever

coz it have been the part of our life..

thank you for all the beautiful stories inside.

k

Inside The Leaf

Dear blog..

yeahh..how r u..??

what a really long time not to see u..

hahah..

so let's starting again..

did u exited with what am gonna to tell you..

this time am use title "Inside the Leaf"

i think it have a deep meaning inside the title that i make..

just now am just finish to capture and edit the leaf that one of my best buddy gave to me around 2 years ago i think..

and am still keep it save with the frame that i found it, and actually i think it quite good frame to keep save the leaf..

i will share to you the picture of the leaf at the bottom of this blog.

talking bout the best buddy that i mention just now, i think she's really the best buddy that I've ever had..i know  her maybe around 4 years already..if am not mistaken i know her in one of YAD event that called TAMarin..

since that time, we close to each other and become a good friends till now.,.

and now, she become really grow..

not becoz of her ages, but bcoz of the way she think, the way she act and many things..

but eveybody change isn't it..??

and the good thing also, sumtime i can share to her what ever i feel..

nowadays she's really busy with her job, and of course her task as one of YAD committee..so we also seldom to chat each other..

don't know why, sumtime i can also miss her..hahaha..

so embarrassing to say it..

but it's true.

and sometime i can also worried bout her, bcoz of her activities that super busy until to take care of her self also really hard..

she got a job, got a college time..and YAD task..

some simple girl with a lot of task everyday..

quite strong isn't it..

we can say her as a robot also..

haha.

but she's jus a simple girl that always want to do the best.

and really interesting girl..

can't do too much..but just pray to buddha and wish the best for her..

with all her task..

and what she'll do..

am gonna be always support her.,,.as a shadow..

"don't get too tired dear my buddy..take care more also of ur self.."

ok..??

anytime u need a help or somebody, u can find me..

and am gonna do my best for you..

i will.,

that's is my lifetime promise..

and one thing that i really want to thank to you that is, the time that u give me on my last birthday..

really happy can spend with you..

and it's really become a special day to me..

bcoz of you..

really thank you for what that you have done for me..

and really thank you for the maple leaf that u gave to me..

the picture that i will upload in this blog later, is especially present for you..

wish u like it..

even i don't know u see it or not..

but hope u like it..

thank you..

ok.

finish about my buddy..

and yahh..hard to say, but i miss her...till now..

quite confuse with this feeling, but that's what am feel now..

let's start with another topic..

haha..

how r u kaka..???

hehe..fine isn't it..a new life in there was amazing i think..

with all the activities and people that u have..

take care always in there..

be happy and keep in strong..

coz u r really a strong and tough girl..

then last bout me..

now am still confuse in finding my really own way..

am just like a dumb that don't know what to do.

really disappointing with my self.

i wish i could hurry to find my way as the way i are..

old n new..

i registered my name already to join it this year.

it might really be my last year to spend with you guys..

and it's also one of my task to fulfill my promise with beloved Light longtime ago.

miss the time when i was talk to you at heaven..

wonder how many years already since the promise have been created.

and wish this year i can fulfill my promise with smoothly..

thank you for all light..

without you,am nothing..

buddha bless you always.

i've got so many lesson in this life that can impove my way of thinking.

but i don't know how to write it in this blog.

next time i'll try to share it in this blog.

ok then..

jus until here first..

and enjoy the picture..

"only belong to you"

with love and happiness..

wishing you,

this present only for you.

thank you for everything..

Chapter 1 of the Stories..THIS IS MY OWN BOOK

halllllloooo again blog...wo0ow...

what a really long time no see u..

i also don't know why it can be happen..

may be when i want to start to talking with u, i feel really empty till now also feel like that..

what things that change after we really meet each others for a very long time.??

when i see you, nothing change that much blog..

so how do you feel bout me.?

am i change..??

how do you think..???

am jus the same me.

all things of my life has really change a lot since that nightmare..

when i lost all that precious one to me.

all change..

my life change also since that time..

is that change to be more better or worse..

i also don't know.

and the worst thing is i still don't found out my way

i still not recover yet..

 I REALLY LOST MY SELF

have no innovation and motivation for myself at all.

till now..

that's is also why I did not tell you what am fell..

i did not tell you what I've been seen..

am back to the truly my self i think

become more close.

heart close.

mind close..

all close..

only pretending.

enjoying days.??i don't think so.

all my truly smile, laugh, happiness, just a fake..

but one things that really is, i love to spend all my money to get all the stuff that i want.

i thing it's much more better to go that way..coz i can makes me happy with all that stuff.

even it's so expensive.

but makes me much more better..

much much more better..

why i can do that..?

coz nothing important anymore to me.?

nothing.

all lost..

all disappears.

ALL..

so i choose to walking all alone..

facing all the things by my self.

i supposed to be alone.

and i think i might be ready for it.

from now on, this is my book.

this is my story..

WE CAN'T PLAY OUR BROKEN STRINGS..

Glass Wine that broke into piece, will not be fix..

there're always have a scar..

but that scar will makes me stronger, and truly realize

it's kind of egoistic i think, but now that's me..

all just for my own..

HEART HURT

SOul disappears..

so what all that means.?

NOTHING MEANS..

TRAUMA

SADNESS

HURT

i'll try to say good bye to you all..

no more in my life..

i really hope so actually..that am not gonna feel it again anymore.

but i know, might be i would face it all again..

but when.?

let's see..

dear blog..

we might be not see again for a long long time..

hahaha.

so take care of urself buddyy..

buddha bless u..

ONLY ME

kheng

inside mine

dear blog..
what a really long time,..
how's life there..???
being good right..?
more happy..???

yapp..of course.
but not with mine..
wewww..


now my mind start to thinking again..
really don't know how to make this fucking damn mind stop thinking.
and i think u know what am i thinking bout.
it's bout her..
until now, i still really in love with her..
but ya.
it's impossible.
but i can't hold this feeling..
this is my true feeling.

i have to face it.
hurt inside..
but what this life is going to be..?
jus hold this hurt..
all inside this heart..


be tough..

P.S : I really do miss her..
i really do..

k

New Begining...

dear blog..

jus wanna say welcome to the new begining in this stories.
well..
everything gonna be different..
and everything gonna be change..
tougher.
stronger..
wiser..

buddha bless..

be tought

k